sedey lagiiiiiiiiiiii........ :-(((((((((((((((((((((

Assalammualaikum......

nape this month.. aku byk kali sedey ntah.... :-(((((((((((((((((( no..no... this year actually...
tahun 2011 nie btul2 menduga sungguh... why???? Allah............................ why???????????
sungguh berat dugaan yg Engkau turunkn pd ku Ya Allah.... mungkin ader hikmahnyer kah?
aku raser sungguh x tertanggung lagi.... sampai biler aku boleh brsabar nie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my friend told me... please be patient..... but i'm give-up now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my working environment very worse right now......... my bosses & my colleagues........................
aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ke mana arah tuju aku-------------------------------

Assalammualaikum...

aku raser aku dh pikir masak2... about my decision...about my work....
aku raser...............................kan.. i will QUIT...............................................
aku raser sedey jugak :-(((((((((((( tapy on the same time .. aku raser hepi gak ".))))))))))))))
coz aku dh lamer keje... almost 9yrs... i'm still staying in this com. :-((((((((((((((
but ... i got nothing... nothing... i mean it... nothing... :-(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
truly.... in my deeply heart.... i want to say " i felt demoralized".... seriously......................
but i feel happy too.... i can take care of my chilren with my heart & my soul... ;-))))))))))
i can see, i can talk, i can touch, i can hear & i can do anything with my " amanah Allah"
they all will growing up in front of my eyes.......... ",))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i will be the great mom & wife as i can do......... insyaallah ;-))))))))))))))
i can cook my favourite food...i can do my favourite hobbies.... ( plant, reading, watching, playing & bla..bla..bla....)... but i don't know when i could start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ya .. Allah Ya Tuhanku... Ampunkan hambamu yang lemah ini...........
Tenangkanlah jiwa dan semangatku.............
Cerdaskanlah pemikiranku............................
Lancarkanlah percakapanku.........................
Permudahkanlah segala urusanku...............
Insyaallah.................. Amin...........................

Tazkirah Ramadan kat opis...

Assalammualaikum..."))))))

ari nie aku hepi skit... w/pun byk bende yg perlu aku pikir...(psl study,work,my children & bla..bla...)..after dgr ceramah ramadhan kt opis aku..ustaz dzulkarnain a.k.a ustaz kalam suci tue...ler......... best & penuh ngan pengajaran & ilmu.. so..sesume yg dh gie dgr ceramah baru td..(lunch ...kan posa)...btlah the right decision okey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;))))))))))))))))))))))

Ari nie dh masuk 10 ari ........ sume umat Islam brpose .........." ,))))))))))))))))
hopefully sume nyer bjln ngan baik yer... cume pg tadi aku masuk lmbt ke opis coz ader accident atas Elitehway..treler abis hancur..dyer punyer driver ntahlah.. Allah wa'alam... kuar kul 7.30am.. sampai opis kul 9.30am....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... merah lg punchcard aku!!!!!!
so far...aku hepi lg ...coz aku dh bebaik ngan dye... my 1st child..dpt sek kt Sekysen 27(1)... tapy... convo anak aku same date with diagnostic test for standard 1..... cian kt dyer..... coz dyer excited sgt nk bt konsert (persembahan tuk tadika dyer skunk)... sorry.. ibu x dpt nk penuhi impian abang nak show on that day...coz abang must sit for the test... tapy ibu dh janji ngan abang nak beli robot transformer kan..... sabar yer nak................ ibu syg sume anak2 ibu........",)))))))))))))))

hopelessness :((((((((((((

i don't like myself today...

just wanna lay here on my place...

not sleeping, neither awake...

Perhaps this is one of my lazy day...

but the real fact is...

i'm feeling so demoralized...

about everything...

Right now, i wish....

hurmmmmm.... doesn't matter....

hopelessness.......... :((((((((((((((((((((((

my heart was broken..........

very sadnessssssssssssssss :(((((((((((((((((((

my sacrifice....

Assalammualaikum...
sacrifice ....
actually aku sedey sesgt... =(((((((((( don't know how want to start...










lately nie aku asyik dok gaduh jer ngan dye... x tau nape????
ader jer bende salah aku... aku dh fed-up , give-up & etc...
why???? dh x suke kt aku ckp!!!! aku plak raser nk gamok jer!!!
benci!!! dh byk bende aku sacrificed...
aku pon dh x tau nk bt camne... ngan dye...
hopefully dye will change my mind...
do the best for us... for our generation...
i'm blurr right now... Ya Allah plz give me your taufik & hidayah...
show me your way.. show me the truth... give me the clue...
aku igt hari baik .. bln baik... ada improvement... but.....worse!!!
selamat tinggal kenangan......................
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speechless!