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Friday, July 07, 2017


Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri🎉
Maaf Zahir & Batin 😀
Salam 🅾🅾✌

Friday, March 31, 2017

Alhamdullilah!

Ya Allah! Dah lama benor aku x tulih ape2 kt blog ni. Syioknyer dpt kembali ke sini. rindu nk bt essay kertas 2 BM 😂 .
InshaAllah mlm nnt aku try share history yg lama aku tggl... 😙

Thursday, March 01, 2012

May ALLAH bless all of us

Assalammualaikum... WBT


Syukur ke hadrat Illahi.. aku masih lagi bernafas hr nie... sihat & still ceria although sleepy skit nih! hopefully aku leh taking care my children menjadi insan yg soleh & solehah serta insan yg berguna di dunia & akhirat... tue la kan.. w/pun kita nie kita rasa gaji kecik.. tapy alhamdullilah me & my family still cukup makan, cukup pakai & cukup segalanya.. cumer x leh nk gie melancong2 ler or bercuti jejauh nun.. just sight-seeing yg dekat2 jer boleh larrr...


Aku tgh dok pening nih!.. aku actually suggested kt hubby aku ttg transfer keje.. tapy dyer buat derk jer!!! haiishh.. geram gak aku.... i miss my hometown & at the same time my mom.... wink2!




Wednesday, February 15, 2012

@@@ Witra's birthday @@@

Assalammualaikum...

Alhamdullilah... Wednesday last next (08 Feb 2012) .. genap my little princess (Nur Layla Witra) 1 year!!! Yahoo... bestnyer.. aku yg excited lebih.. ntah coz she the one and only my daughter kot... yg lg 2 org tue.. my heroes...

W/pun aku x der bt kenduri or makan2 kat umah.. tapy aku tetap celebrated my sweetie punye besday kat KFC.. just beli cake kat KING'S CONFECTIONERY 1/2 kg.. coz kami satu family ader 5 org jer.. nk beli 1 kg nnt cam membazir sgt plak.. Although aku pun bukan mkn sgt kek.. (ye ke statement aku nie.. ) kan aper if dpt cake Secret Recipe nie.. mau melahap aku mkn..




Niat di hati tue muler2 nak gak buat kenduri doa selamat tuk my sweetie & lgpun aku dh abih study.. tapy ntah ler.. silap aku gak.. budget bust.. aku yg dok kerjakan gak.. tdk tue aku planning nk bt kenduri.. pastu siap nk beli cake yg bentuk princess colour pink nie.. sweet sgt..
siap ader goodies bag utk anak2 neighbour or kwn2 yg dtg.. nk jemput mami & ayah aku kt kg..
invite gak bapak & mak mertua aku.. haisshh... all this my faulted... but nk bt camna lg.. bende dah lepas...

K lah.. now aku cuma harap my sweetie will be a good, wise, healthy, safe, pious, perfect aqhlak girl.. ;-DDD...
Next year Insyaallah ibu promise.. ibu nak buat kenduri .. i hope my dream will be come true... ;-))))

Thursday, December 01, 2011

finally...

Assalammualaikum...

pejam celik..pejam celik.. dah 2thn setgh aku study.. dah pun abih... tunggu nak naik stage jer...





time flies... clock ticking speedily...

age increasing... month replace month...


now it is time to determinant everything..... ;-DDD


apakah halatuju aku yg seterusnya... my next level... step forward...
apa2pun aku amat bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi.. krn dgn izinNya.. aku sampai ke tahap nie..
Thanks Allah ... thanks for everything....


Friday, November 11, 2011

When the going gets tough...


Assalammualaikum...



11-11-11 adalah tanggal hari dalam bulan & tahun yg bersejarah buat sesetengah org...

tapy aku tetap aku... macam biasa ... macam selalu... ermmmm.... nape yek!

ramai gak ofismate yg kawen today... so sape2 yg kawen today.. esok, lusa atau nanti...

ingat yer... jgn fikir hidup nie terlalu indah... dunia ini "ana" yang punya...

ingat!!!! akan ada masa ko akan raser langit itu "tinggi ke rendah..."..

akan ader jatuh & bangun... terduduk @ tersungkur...

so... BERINGAT sblm sampai nyer waktu tue.....




just remind to all of you & myself too....

manusia mudah lupe.. nape yek!! manusia mudah lupa asal usul...

manusia mudah lupe kebaikan yg diterima....

manusia mudah lupe kenikmatan yg dikecapi....

manusia memang terlalu mudah sangat lupe.....

Ya Allah.. Ya Tuhanku.. jadikanlah hambamu ini... hamba yang bersyukur... Amin... ;-))))























Friday, August 19, 2011

sedey lagiiiiiiiiiiii........ :-(((((((((((((((((((((

Assalammualaikum......

nape this month.. aku byk kali sedey ntah.... :-(((((((((((((((((( no..no... this year actually...
tahun 2011 nie btul2 menduga sungguh... why???? Allah............................ why???????????
sungguh berat dugaan yg Engkau turunkn pd ku Ya Allah.... mungkin ader hikmahnyer kah?
aku raser sungguh x tertanggung lagi.... sampai biler aku boleh brsabar nie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my friend told me... please be patient..... but i'm give-up now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my working environment very worse right now......... my bosses & my colleagues........................
aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, August 11, 2011

ke mana arah tuju aku-------------------------------


Assalammualaikum...

aku raser aku dh pikir masak2... about my decision...about my work....
aku raser...............................kan.. i will QUIT...............................................
aku raser sedey jugak :-(((((((((((( tapy on the same time .. aku raser hepi gak ".))))))))))))))
coz aku dh lamer keje... almost 9yrs... i'm still staying in this com. :-((((((((((((((
but ... i got nothing... nothing... i mean it... nothing... :-(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
truly.... in my deeply heart.... i want to say " i felt demoralized".... seriously......................
but i feel happy too.... i can take care of my chilren with my heart & my soul... ;-))))))))))
i can see, i can talk, i can touch, i can hear & i can do anything with my " amanah Allah"
they all will growing up in front of my eyes.......... ",))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i will be the great mom & wife as i can do......... insyaallah ;-))))))))))))))
i can cook my favourite food...i can do my favourite hobbies.... ( plant, reading, watching, playing & bla..bla..bla....)... but i don't know when i could start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ya .. Allah Ya Tuhanku... Ampunkan hambamu yang lemah ini...........
Tenangkanlah jiwa dan semangatku.............
Cerdaskanlah pemikiranku............................
Lancarkanlah percakapanku.........................
Permudahkanlah segala urusanku...............
Insyaallah.................. Amin...........................

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Tazkirah Ramadan kat opis...


Assalammualaikum..."))))))

ari nie aku hepi skit... w/pun byk bende yg perlu aku pikir...(psl study,work,my children & bla..bla...)..after dgr ceramah ramadhan kt opis aku..ustaz dzulkarnain a.k.a ustaz kalam suci tue...ler......... best & penuh ngan pengajaran & ilmu.. so..sesume yg dh gie dgr ceramah baru td..(lunch ...kan posa)...btlah the right decision okey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;))))))))))))))))))))))

Ari nie dh masuk 10 ari ........ sume umat Islam brpose .........." ,))))))))))))))))
hopefully sume nyer bjln ngan baik yer... cume pg tadi aku masuk lmbt ke opis coz ader accident atas Elitehway..treler abis hancur..dyer punyer driver ntahlah.. Allah wa'alam... kuar kul 7.30am.. sampai opis kul 9.30am....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... merah lg punchcard aku!!!!!!
so far...aku hepi lg ...coz aku dh bebaik ngan dye... my 1st child..dpt sek kt Sekysen 27(1)... tapy... convo anak aku same date with diagnostic test for standard 1..... cian kt dyer..... coz dyer excited sgt nk bt konsert (persembahan tuk tadika dyer skunk)... sorry.. ibu x dpt nk penuhi
impian abang nak show on that day...coz abang must sit for the test... tapy ibu dh janji ngan abang nak beli robot transformer kan..... sabar yer nak................ ibu syg sume anak2 ibu........",)))))))))))))))

Friday, August 05, 2011

hopelessness :((((((((((((




i don't like myself today...

just wanna lay here on my place...

not sleeping, neither awake...

Perhaps this is one of my lazy day...

but the real fact is...

i'm feeling so demoralized...

about everything...

Right now, i wish....

hurmmmmm.... doesn't matter....




hopelessness.......... :((((((((((((((((((((((






my heart was broken..........








very sadnessssssssssssssss :(((((((((((((((((((













Tuesday, August 02, 2011

my sacrifice....

Assalammualaikum...
sacrifice ....
actually aku sedey sesgt... =(((((((((( don't know how want to start...










lately nie aku asyik dok gaduh jer ngan dye... x tau nape????
ader jer bende salah aku... aku dh fed-up , give-up & etc...
why???? dh x suke kt aku ckp!!!! aku plak raser nk gamok jer!!!
benci!!! dh byk bende aku sacrificed...
aku pon dh x tau nk bt camne... ngan dye...
hopefully dye will change my mind...
do the best for us... for our generation...
i'm blurr right now... Ya Allah plz give me your taufik & hidayah...
show me your way.. show me the truth... give me the clue...
aku igt hari baik .. bln baik... ada improvement... but.....worse!!!
selamat tinggal kenangan......................
=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
speechless!




Thursday, July 28, 2011

i lost my true friendship...

Assalammualaikum...

First of all.. aku dh raser mmg 'lost' something... dunno why?
aku sedey sesgt...waaaaaaaaaaaaa... ;-((((( ntah nape it's happen 2 me?
i lost my true friendship.. even i still have my family & etc...
i also need friendship... my besfren 4ever... i lost it...
'true friendship' i mean it! dh x tau nk ckp camne coz very2 sadness :-(((((((((((((((((((((
aku dh x hepiii cm biaser.. bowing sesgt..
aku raser x der smgt nk keje... malas jer pepagi nk bangun gie keje...
raser gie keje pn coz trpakser... coz nk bayo utang2...;-((((((((
x der lg kwn yg sanggup dgr aku citer pe2..
citer problem ke..citer pasal study ke... n bla..bla..bla..
sumer bt hal memasing... aku nyesal....
madu yg aku bg.. racun yang aku dapat!!!! 'f-u' ...

Once in a lifetime
you find a friend
who touches not only your heart
but also your soul

Once in a lifetime
you discover someone
who stands beside you,
not over you.

Once in a lifetime
if you are lucky
you find someone
as I have found you.

Very special people
we can be ourselves with,
talk with, laugh with,
hope with and believe with....

" True friendship "

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

how I spend my money

Money..... Wang... Duit.. a.k.a Pulus
Sume bende kene guna duit.... makan duit... minum duit...
gie jejalan duit..malah nak masuk washroom pong kene bayor gune duit...
So.. dipendekkan citer aku pong ingin 'menyepend' duit aku dgn mmbeli

jeng..jeng... kitchen cabinet... dr aku beli iphone4 ke.. @ ipad2...

mmbazir jerk aku raser...coz dh ader laptop .. pastu kt opis pn dh ader new pc ...

so, dr aku wasting my money dr mmbeli sume2 tuh..

better aku bt 'kc' tuk dapur umah aku!..

Alhamdullilah.. smlm dh gie booked..

tunggu time dier org nk gie bt measurement plak..

pastu reconfirm blk dgn design yg aku pilih tue..

then br gie psg... Yahoo....

x sabo rasenyer nk negok my dapor brtkar wajah..

hehehehehehe.... Pape.. nnt aku post my new 'kc' yek!

my dream kitchen cabinet (konon2nyer)... hehehe..

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Year 2011...

Assalammualaikum...


Dear all.....


Long time aku menyepi coz a lots of thing i have to do!... ha!Ha!ha! cam bagus.. Takdelah, cuma aku cibuk skit! coz i got new baby...Yes! my sweettie ..that's my GURLZ! Alhamdullilah ... aku bersyukur sesgt kepada yg Esa... Dgn dugaan & cabaran yg ku tempuhi in this year. 1st thing - aku dpt baby girl (Good News).... 2nd - My pointer dropped (Bad News)...... 3rd - I got involved in road accident (Bad News)... 4th - I received SCL (Bad News).... 5th - My sweetie was warded @ SALAM M/C (Bad News).... what next will happen to me????? By the way aku rase mesti ada hikmahNya disebalik peristiwa yg berlaku....


Ya Allah..Ya Tuhanku... semoga Kau berikan hambamu ini kekuatan utk menempuhi hari2 yg mendatang..... Amin............






Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Dah start keja....

Assalammualaikum...

Hari nie baru masuk Syawal yang ke-5..
Aku dah mula keja hari nie.. punya boring gila..kat opis berapa kerat manusia saja yg ader!
le..ya ramai lagi kat kampung dok beraya sakan...
aku sorang jer dah kena keja..coz cuti pun x brapa ada..
ape2 pun aku hepi jugak coz aku 'kidnap' mami aku dari kampung..
tolong jaga cucu2 dia... coz babysitter depa tgh berpantang...
x sabar nak balik umah..mesti mami aku masak sedap2... hurmmmmmmm....
dah lama x merasa masakan air tangan mami aku... maklumlah aku susah dpt cuti...
Mami... nanti anak mami nie... bawak mami jalan2 bila hujung minggu nie okey...
Mami.... banyak dah pengorbanan mami dah buat kat anak mami nie...
Dulu... cucu2 mami tue pun mami jaga, masa depa mula2 lahir ke dunia nie...
Dan banyak kali jugak mami dtg jauh dari kampung untuk temankan anak mami nie..
bila mana menantu mami kena keja 'outstation'....
Betapa banyak bantuan & pertolongan yg mami dah bagi utk kami sekeluarga...
Anak & menantu mami nie... amat menghargai jasa & pengorbanan mami hingga akhir hayat kami... moga2 cucu2 mami jugak akan berbuat perkara yang sama... insyaallah.....
Kepada ayah... terima kasih kerana membenarkan mami ikut kami....
Jasa baik ayah juga x kan kami lupakan....
Syukur ke atas hadrat illahi... kerana dikurniakan mami & ayah yg memahami....
Terima kasih... & terima kasih semua.................

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Syawal


Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

Maaf Zahir & Batin...

Semoga semua ceria dan bahagia di hari lebaran ...

Monday, August 16, 2010

Ramadhan al-mubarak

Hari nie masuk hari ke-6 semua umat Islam berpuasa...
Alhamdullilah aku pun dpt posa ..x tinggal lagi...
Hopefully dpt posa sebulan penuh.. he..he..he... kalau larat ler!
Semalam masa 'gap' class English.. aku pong gie ler PKNS..
konon2 nak ushar dulu baju raya.. tup2 hermmmmmmm...
terus beli 2 pasang baju raya.. baju kurung Pahang & baju chiffon..he..he..he..
konon2 tahun nie x nak beli baju raya! tetiba terasa nk beli pulak!
coz price kira murah gak! compare kalau beli kat shopping complex..
Balik dr shopping.. tup2 'incoming sms'... English class is cancel...
Hampeh tul! kalau aku tau terus blah balik awal2 lagi...

Tuesday, August 03, 2010

Ramadhan bakal tiba....

Last weekend aku free... x der class.. best giler!
So.. aku pn gie 'SOGO' ari Sabtu baru2 nie...
niat nak shopping sakan ler.. tuk raye...
Ye..la.. dah 'masyuk'.. mesti nk beli mcm2!
Tapy... Ya Allah punya la ramai umat Nabi Muhammad...
aku rase cam dah bulan posa... punyer ler ramai owang...
But.. kira okey jugak ler .. boleh minum2 & mkn2 lg..
aku budget before bulan posa okey le kot.. x ramai org..
rupe2 nyer org pong.. x nak shopping time bln posa.. letih ler..
ye lah time 'SALE' pulak tue...
aku terus naik tingkat atas sekali shopping baju anak2 aku..
kepala pulak naik pening2 lalat!
ye lah.. tadi menempuh jamz yg pjg.. pastu 'Q' nak masuk parking lg..
dpt la sambar baju anak2 sorang 2 pasang...
price dia okey ler.. 50% discount...
then turun beli kat floor tuk level baju lelaki plak!
tunggu husband aku pie carik baju raye dia.. malas nk ikut..
kepala dah naik berdenyut2! anak2 buat hal pulak ..
takut silap2 haribulan nanti ada announcement ada budak ilang plak!
isk..isk..isk... lepas hal baju husband dh settle ..
konon2 nak beli kasut kt aku pulak.. tup2 rase cam nak tumbang dah..
terus suh husband aku balik terus..tanpa aku shopping pe2 utk aku!
punya ler penat giler... tue arr... excited sgt nak gie 'SOGO'..
last2 sakit yg dpt...
aku pikir2.. ler kalau nak gie area KL.. setahun sekali boleh ler..
'semak' kepala aku dlm area KL.. very crowded.. lemas...

Thursday, July 01, 2010

Bulan yang ku tunggu...........

Ha....... ari nie dh masuk bulan Julai!
yahooooooooo.... bulan yang ku tunggu2
nak tahu nape...........
hopefully dpt bonus dr compeni aku!
bagi ler byk skit! dpt yg lebih2 lagi.. (extraordinary)
byk mende yg aku nk beli nih!
dh bt kira2 dh! isk!isk!isk!isk!isk!
aku nak pakaikan 'baju' baru kt keta aku!
'blue' color ..................
nk beli baju raya kt anak2 aku!
he..he..he..he.. he... x sabar dh nie!
pe2 hal mmg dpt...
tapy x tau bile & brape?????

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

feeling not very well

Ari nie rase x berapa sihat gie..
Semalam dah mc.. still rase pening2 lalat lg...
mujur load keje x brape ader!!! he..he..he..
alhamdullilah... my decision ttg prob. ari tue..
so... aku decided to proceed...
moga ada hikmah disebalik apa yg berlaku....
aku berserah & tabah di atas ketentuan Ilahi...

Semoga segalanya akan berjalan dgn lancar......
Amin.......