ke mana arah tuju aku-------------------------------

Assalammualaikum...

aku raser aku dh pikir masak2... about my decision...about my work....
aku raser...............................kan.. i will QUIT...............................................
aku raser sedey jugak :-(((((((((((( tapy on the same time .. aku raser hepi gak ".))))))))))))))
coz aku dh lamer keje... almost 9yrs... i'm still staying in this com. :-((((((((((((((
but ... i got nothing... nothing... i mean it... nothing... :-(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
truly.... in my deeply heart.... i want to say " i felt demoralized".... seriously......................
but i feel happy too.... i can take care of my chilren with my heart & my soul... ;-))))))))))
i can see, i can talk, i can touch, i can hear & i can do anything with my " amanah Allah"
they all will growing up in front of my eyes.......... ",))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i will be the great mom & wife as i can do......... insyaallah ;-))))))))))))))
i can cook my favourite food...i can do my favourite hobbies.... ( plant, reading, watching, playing & bla..bla..bla....)... but i don't know when i could start!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ya .. Allah Ya Tuhanku... Ampunkan hambamu yang lemah ini...........
Tenangkanlah jiwa dan semangatku.............
Cerdaskanlah pemikiranku............................
Lancarkanlah percakapanku.........................
Permudahkanlah segala urusanku...............
Insyaallah.................. Amin...........................

Tazkirah Ramadan kat opis...

Assalammualaikum..."))))))

ari nie aku hepi skit... w/pun byk bende yg perlu aku pikir...(psl study,work,my children & bla..bla...)..after dgr ceramah ramadhan kt opis aku..ustaz dzulkarnain a.k.a ustaz kalam suci tue...ler......... best & penuh ngan pengajaran & ilmu.. so..sesume yg dh gie dgr ceramah baru td..(lunch ...kan posa)...btlah the right decision okey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;))))))))))))))))))))))

Ari nie dh masuk 10 ari ........ sume umat Islam brpose .........." ,))))))))))))))))
hopefully sume nyer bjln ngan baik yer... cume pg tadi aku masuk lmbt ke opis coz ader accident atas Elitehway..treler abis hancur..dyer punyer driver ntahlah.. Allah wa'alam... kuar kul 7.30am.. sampai opis kul 9.30am....waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... merah lg punchcard aku!!!!!!
so far...aku hepi lg ...coz aku dh bebaik ngan dye... my 1st child..dpt sek kt Sekysen 27(1)... tapy... convo anak aku same date with diagnostic test for standard 1..... cian kt dyer..... coz dyer excited sgt nk bt konsert (persembahan tuk tadika dyer skunk)... sorry.. ibu x dpt nk penuhi impian abang nak show on that day...coz abang must sit for the test... tapy ibu dh janji ngan abang nak beli robot transformer kan..... sabar yer nak................ ibu syg sume anak2 ibu........",)))))))))))))))

hopelessness :((((((((((((

i don't like myself today...

just wanna lay here on my place...

not sleeping, neither awake...

Perhaps this is one of my lazy day...

but the real fact is...

i'm feeling so demoralized...

about everything...

Right now, i wish....

hurmmmmm.... doesn't matter....

hopelessness.......... :((((((((((((((((((((((

my heart was broken..........

very sadnessssssssssssssss :(((((((((((((((((((

my sacrifice....

Assalammualaikum...
sacrifice ....
actually aku sedey sesgt... =(((((((((( don't know how want to start...










lately nie aku asyik dok gaduh jer ngan dye... x tau nape????
ader jer bende salah aku... aku dh fed-up , give-up & etc...
why???? dh x suke kt aku ckp!!!! aku plak raser nk gamok jer!!!
benci!!! dh byk bende aku sacrificed...
aku pon dh x tau nk bt camne... ngan dye...
hopefully dye will change my mind...
do the best for us... for our generation...
i'm blurr right now... Ya Allah plz give me your taufik & hidayah...
show me your way.. show me the truth... give me the clue...
aku igt hari baik .. bln baik... ada improvement... but.....worse!!!
selamat tinggal kenangan......................
=((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
speechless!

i lost my true friendship...

Assalammualaikum...

First of all.. aku dh raser mmg 'lost' something... dunno why?
aku sedey sesgt...waaaaaaaaaaaaa... ;-((((( ntah nape it's happen 2 me?
i lost my true friendship.. even i still have my family & etc...
i also need friendship... my besfren 4ever... i lost it...
'true friendship' i mean it! dh x tau nk ckp camne coz very2 sadness :-(((((((((((((((((((((
aku dh x hepiii cm biaser.. bowing sesgt..
aku raser x der smgt nk keje... malas jer pepagi nk bangun gie keje...
raser gie keje pn coz trpakser... coz nk bayo utang2...;-((((((((
x der lg kwn yg sanggup dgr aku citer pe2..
citer problem ke..citer pasal study ke... n bla..bla..bla..
sumer bt hal memasing... aku nyesal....
madu yg aku bg.. racun yang aku dapat!!!! 'f-u' ...

Once in a lifetime
you find a friend
who touches not only your heart
but also your soul

Once in a lifetime
you discover someone
who stands beside you,
not over you.

Once in a lifetime
if you are lucky
you find someone
as I have found you.

Very special people
we can be ourselves with,
talk with, laugh with,
hope with and believe with....

" True friendship "

how I spend my money

Money..... Wang... Duit.. a.k.a Pulus
Sume bende kene guna duit.... makan duit... minum duit...
gie jejalan duit..malah nak masuk washroom pong kene bayor gune duit...
So.. dipendekkan citer aku pong ingin 'menyepend' duit aku dgn mmbeli

jeng..jeng... kitchen cabinet... dr aku beli iphone4 ke.. @ ipad2...

mmbazir jerk aku raser...coz dh ader laptop .. pastu kt opis pn dh ader new pc ...

so, dr aku wasting my money dr mmbeli sume2 tuh..

better aku bt 'kc' tuk dapur umah aku!..

Alhamdullilah.. smlm dh gie booked..

tunggu time dier org nk gie bt measurement plak..

pastu reconfirm blk dgn design yg aku pilih tue..

then br gie psg... Yahoo....

x sabo rasenyer nk negok my dapor brtkar wajah..

hehehehehehe.... Pape.. nnt aku post my new 'kc' yek!

my dream kitchen cabinet (konon2nyer)... hehehe..

Year 2011...

Assalammualaikum...


Dear all.....


Long time aku menyepi coz a lots of thing i have to do!... ha!Ha!ha! cam bagus.. Takdelah, cuma aku cibuk skit! coz i got new baby...Yes! my sweettie ..that's my GURLZ! Alhamdullilah ... aku bersyukur sesgt kepada yg Esa... Dgn dugaan & cabaran yg ku tempuhi in this year. 1st thing - aku dpt baby girl (Good News).... 2nd - My pointer dropped (Bad News)...... 3rd - I got involved in road accident (Bad News)... 4th - I received SCL (Bad News).... 5th - My sweetie was warded @ SALAM M/C (Bad News).... what next will happen to me????? By the way aku rase mesti ada hikmahNya disebalik peristiwa yg berlaku....


Ya Allah..Ya Tuhanku... semoga Kau berikan hambamu ini kekuatan utk menempuhi hari2 yg mendatang..... Amin............